Am still alive but am barely breathing, am praying to a God that i barely bealive in. What can i do to make it through? I need freedom from the chains that have inprisoned my heart and soul. Am in a twilight zone where there is no existance of life but only pain,cold and torment, only in my imagination that i can truly feel my real life. In a blink of an eye everything that i cherish slowly disappearing from my site. Am powerless to hold them in my arms tightly, please bring me back to life, wake me up from this dream because am falling two thousand feet under knowing that i will never come back from this deep slamber. I see a distance light but i can't reach it in time. But the distance beat of my heart that beats endlessly creating a tune of salvation and freedom, gives me courage to fight my fears and defeat them. I want to break and free myself but my fears wont allow me. I want to fight but am to weak to fight my fears, am freezing, the colds have invaded my body killing me slowly. But i know help is on the way someone will save me from this endless dream yes i can feel it. I cant back down i have to fight this torments, i have to free myself from this chains. The beat of my heart rhyme endlessly, then suddenly i woke up realising that it was only a dream.

Life is like a journey which at many times the trevellers go through alot of challenges on the way. And there are quite a number of these challenges, but most of us have failed to understand that all this challenges are ment to strengthen us and keep us on the right track to continue with this journey. I know that sometimes we think that life is too harsh, life is like a beast that only consume the weak and poor physicaly. But that is not true! It is our way of thinking and judging life negatively thats why we end up giving up and we dont achieve what we seek. And one thing we have to know is that, there isn't a good road to prosperity, the path towards success is always rough and this is the only way we will persive life differently. Just the other day i visited this hospital,actualy i was feeling rather sickly and i wanted the doctor to check me. But when i arrived at the hospital and saw how the situation was . I was really ashame of myself even i was afraid to see the doctor. People are really struggling and are desprate and thirsty for life, i mean i saw really sick people in there. So guys let us not ignore the good life that we have even though we are poor or rich, as long as you can wake up every morning without any problem.

Footsteps of life: (dedicated to the weak hearted)

My eyes glance around trying to make very discreet questions. Infront of me i saw footsteps they were so strange, is like this footsteps were trying to depict an image of life that was chained in a cave. Before long i was stunt to see a shadow deep in the forest under the rays of the moon and the stars. My heart almost came to a stand still, my voice was voiceless. With fear cripping all over me i wanted to run away but could not do it. The sky was so noiseless, darkness illuminated all over me, the night crawlers were so busy searching for their end bread. As i was about to walk away i had a trembling sound calling from behind, when l looked back i saw her crying telling me not to run away but to stay with her. The strength that was gone was coming back replacing all the fears that i had. We sat down as our eyes trying to connect. She was so angelic but very sad. The clear night sky and the creatures under the moon and stars were patiently waiting for me to make a move. '' who are you''? I asked with a stammering voice!!! There was a still silence then a soft voice replied......''am an innocent girl who has been consumed by this world, in the eyes of men am a strange creature who has been despised and rejected because they see me as an outsider. But inside there exist a beautiful soul which is seeking for salvation and freedom. Am lonely and sad know one is willing and able to talk to me or even sit close to me because they fear me, yet i was born by men , raised by men and chased away by men and now am being rejected by men. What you see around me is my family for now. Sometime i asked myself why me out of a billion people? Why it had to happen to me. I dont regret being like this because i know it was not my choice to be born like this and i know i can never go back and correct every mistake in my life. Sometimes my heart trembles with fear when i see how the world is crumbling down infront of the greatest leaders, wise men, very educated people. It is not about being naive but we have ignored the love between us, we hate each other and thats why the next generation will be extinct and never be heard no more. Sometimes i feel that this world is so unfair to all of us favouring only the cruel and heartless people. But what i do understand is that we are the one making this world to be unfair for us simply because we are not patient enough to wait for the better feature that is still being prepared for us, thats why our fragile hearts are being broken into tiny pieces like shattered glass. Because we are not ready to endure the pain and suffering we are going through. Every day i wake up the world to me is the same but my soul is mutating and its becoming more powerful. But i must wait and be patient because my time is not yet ready to rise again and face the world head on without fear''. '' l listened to everyword she was telling me and i felt guilty for allowing myself to be deceaved by this world. She opened my eyes and allowing me to see the possibilities of life, i left there knowing very well that the footsteps we leave behind marks the greatest memories in life.

Since i have yet to say thanks

Thanks for being there, always being aware. Thanks for being near when i needed you here. Thanks for staying so close when i needed you the most. Thanks for the love your rain on me like a dove always seeming as if you are from right above. Thanks for the times you seem to help me enjoy love. Thanks for being there alse for being so fair. Thanks for saying Hi when they all shouted goodbye. Thanks for giving me the time of day when all your friends didnt bother to say hey.

Letters from my heart: Words from my heart

I was only 17 still in eleventh grade, still discovering the reality of this world. You tried to win my heart but my heart and my soul were pointing to a different direction. Sorry you fell in love with me, but i never took noticed or given you a serious exception about it, and the suffering you went through trying to show me the meaning of love. The truth is my heart belong to someone else, but i dont want you to go through trauma because of many rejections you will get from me. If love was to be bought by the riches and wealth of this world you would have own me without any difficulty. You should never under estimate the power of destiny because the love and feelings we have can turn bitter only because we made the wrong choices. Dont be stressed or feel rejected because i have not allowed you into my life and my world. Am writing for you this letter because i know that you are someone special and if i have to choose a friend out of a billion people i would choose someone like you. Remember that there is a fragile heart and lonely soul out there crying and waiting for your love the only thing left for you to do is to be patient. Am only trying to save ourself from the guilts that will inflict us in the feature if we dare take this unplanned journey that will only take us straight to hell. The beauty that you see infront of you is not enough proof of real love, we have only known each other for a short time and the love you want from me is for a lifetime,lol!!! ''impossible''. The right time will come when you will not run after love instead love will run after you. Dont fill your heart with hatred because of the truth i have told you, you are still welcomed in my life anytime you need a friend to talk to. Just know that love will never end as long as we wait for the the right time. Love is so mysterious and it has many faces, sometimes it is clouded by happiness sometimes by anger. I dont have much to say for now but what i want you to remember is that dont let your heart forget its source because that is where true love exist.

a hero i will be

A hero i became when you lost all hope in life, and lifted you from hells nightmare to heavens paradise.A hero i became when i spread my arms to welcome you into my life just like a flower spreads its gay arms embracing the bee to sack its nector. A hero i became when i walked with you in difficult time of your life just like a shadow never leaving your side even for once. A hero i became when you saw me as your everything you ever needed, the rain,the wind,the seed, your joy, your love,your friend,your happiness.A hero i became when you were addicted to.A hero i became when i walked with you through difficult terrains and rough roads.A hero i became when i moved the mountains for you to pass through.A hero i became when i wiped all the tears from your eyes making a promise to you that you will always be became. A hero i will be when i will stand with you forever

true gift from above

many miles we have travelled not knowing that one day we would reach the furthest point of life. We have toiled, fell, and almost gave up while on this journey,hoping that one day this tireless, unmercyless journey would come to an end. sometime i shed tears when i looked behind the footsteps that marks the greatest friendship we had and still exist. it brings shiver and cold all over me that one day we will live to forget where we came from. But hope is what i have that memories we have will never grow old as long we are alive. If had ever wronged you please soften your heart for me because life is too short.i had dream that you disappeared completely in my life, i called out your name but there was no response , i woke up sweating furiously knowing that i have lost you.OOPs!!! it was just a dream! just a dream, but i learned a big lesson, friends are a blessing from GOD and i would do anything to protect the gift that GOD granted me.

where are you old me

I still wonder where you are my old me, i cant forget those days when the world was still young in our eyes, when we were discovering new things in life, when the world was revolving around us. Those days when there was no defination of LOVE< FRIENDSHIP<HATETRADE, everything was the same, but sadly those days are long gone, it has remained memories painted in our minds. now we are different people living in the same world but a changed world. why did we part ways?when we promised each other we would never separate!!!!!??? I am afraid of this world without you. You have disappeared though the world seem so small, i have traveled in every corner of this world hoping that you are still alive old me.But my hopes of finding the traces of you bore no fruits.Where are you hiding? will i ever find you/ and if i do will you remember your old me. Am cold and lonely without you, this world is a stranger to me now. I dont trust anyone because i feel unsafe without you.I know that i should not give up for you but wait for the right time that you will show up. But i feel so impatient to do that. where are you old me

please dont

dont look at me you scaring me                                                                                                                          dont judge me am not a criminal.                                                                                                                        dont abandon me i feel lonely.                                                                                                                           dont hate me i want unconditional love.                                                                                                             dont lose hope in me because i bealive in you.                                                                                                   dont make me to cry i want to laugh with you.                                                                                                   dont chase me away please welcome me.                                                                                                         dont disguissed me you make me feel unworthy.                                                                                               dont shout at me i need your  corrections and advice.                                                                                       dont run away from me please walk with me.                                                                                                    Dont......!Dont......!Dont......! because i am human                                                                                                                                                                  

are we still the same

this world is made up of two people,not a billion or a trillion people in order to help,cherish,understand,support,care and  love one another.But not to hate,envy,punish,abandoned our self. God had a purpose why He gave us the most beautiful gift,when he removed apart of man and created Wo-man. Someone who would be there with us,support us.But we have turned against one another as if we are completely different people yet  we are from the same FATHER.Where is that connection that God tired between us?Did we cut it or is it invisible that we cant notice its there. Are we still the same ancestors of ADAM    EVE   ABEL  CAIN  ABRAHAM  IZZACK  JACOB. lets stop and think before we completely wiped out the love that God gave us when he created us

what went wrong?

I thought  you were my best pal for life, i admire the way you smiled with me,telling stories that were amusing. without knowing that one day you would turn against me and destroy my life, my friendship and most of all my dignity to you. i gave you my honesty,my friendly love,my trust, knowing that i would never lose you but you came and turned all this into hatred,greediness,jealousy. I thought i was dreaming when you left my site without any explanation,but i had to slap myself because i was going crazy without the best pal i had ever known. Questions came lingering in my mind,what did i do wrong to deserve this? did i miss something before i met my Ex best pal. But i know that memories will never grow old as long as we are apart. But if destiny gives us a second chance i would not hesitate to grab it.

owning love

I thought love was a fairytale that it only exist in our dreams, i never imagined that love is everywhere. inside our lives, love exist.In our families love exist. When we walk around the streets of the biggest cities of the world love exists. but a question linger in my mind how do we own it? and make it part of has. How can we control love?yet we see love around us, between two people,between a mother and her child, between God and his people. love is patient, love does not envy. if you can defined love then you have the clue on how to own love.

untouched beauty

Under the sunset a sound is calling, for celebration,for freedom. A sound of a river flowing from the mountains, down the valley, bringing with it the beauty of life. a life only nature itself can describe. Beside the river i hear celebrations of flowers of different colours.RED,PURPLE,YELLOW,WHITE.The flowers releases the scents to remind the world that they exist but not extinct. On the other side the wind blows, on top of vegetations so green that the beauty of the world is reflected above

i promised you

did i promise that i would clear the road for you. did i promise that i would come back the second time and take you with me to my kingdom? did i promise that i would be with you in times of trouble. did i promised that i would move the mountains for you. did i tell that no weapon form against you shall prosper and that you will be safe in my hands. did i promise that when am gone to my father i will send to you a helper who will lead you to the right path and show you the goodways. did i promise that you will always be my child. And i will always keep my promise to you.

sharing

over the years my life had been blessed though i have gone through difficult moments. walking over the fire but not being burn by it. now its time to share and give courage to that person who is  still on this tireless journey in this strange world. i am writing my autobiography and i hope and bealive that the story about my life will change someone who is about to give up in life and seem like all hope is gone. someone who has been through hell and back.because i belive that everyone has a right to have a good life,even the devil himself cannot take that right from you