miss you

When you lose that one you love, something inside snaps and it hurts so, so much, you feel emptiness surround you and you don't know what to do, something that felt so good isn't there anymore and you want to do all you can to get it back but you don't know how, you start to loose your senses and your mind changes.
Everything that looked so precious seems so worthless, all the beauty in the world is where you can't see it, you get angry but you don't know what to do and you start to run, you run away from all the things you know, trying to let go of something that you only want more and more with each try you do to let it go.
What if the insanity that is raging inside my head of missing you brings this situation: In my left hand I got some pills, I take one and I forget everything about us, but in my right hand I got a loaded gun, which of the two objects should I use? I know the answer, do you?
Just know one thing...
I'd Love To Miss You In The Morning, If I'd See You Again In The Evening.

DO YOU KNOW ME

Do you know a life of loneliness and one filled with pain,
 living a life with nothing to gain,
 Surrounded by darkness, overwhelmed with shame.
 A life without peace with no one to blame.
 Do you know of a place unseen,
 A place that holds only shattered dreams,
 A place filled with sorrow with no end in sight,
 I am given this gift each and every night.
 Do you know of a place so cold,
 This is the place I call my soul,
 A place without hope or comforting dreams,
 A life not worth living wouldn't it seem.
 Do you know of a life that should have never been,
 And the feeling that today this life has to end.
 One more day of sadness is much too hard to bear,
 I am tired of living a life of heartache and despair.
 Do you know a person with so much pain inside,
 Or the feeling of loneliness when no one hears your cries,
 Maybe when the tears are gone and I can clearly see,
 The only question left will be...
 DO YOU KNOW ME

my best friend,,my love

My dear CHEP
 It is not a little thing, for centuries we have been talking about it. Or tried, at least. It is the favorite theme in poetry. No one gets tired of it. Love, as it is, always love.
 It's strong. More than just “strong”. Love is indestructible. When it's real, it is indestructible. Love makes us suffer. Nothing in the world brings so much pain as love. It can be tough, cruel. It can tear us apart. It can be the biggest villain of a story. It can be the purest and the hardest pain ever.
 But still, it’s love. And endless or not, it's the most unbelievable thing in human existence.
 I have tried so many times to explain how much I love you. I always end up crying. Perhaps it is because what I feel for you is too big, even for me, to understand. There is no simple or easy way. But loving you has always been natural. Since I met you, I believe that everyone possesses a love that rests within them. A love that sleeps quietly during our childhood years, in anticipation to bloom for that one person. I never realized that I had begun to love you. I realized that I always had.
 You have not just showed me how to love, but also what it means to be loved. You have taught me how to be your other half and still be my own whole. And still, it is impossible for me to explain something as complex as my love for you. Words, are simply not enough.
 This summer it will be four years since our paths brought us together. The time has passed so fast. We often laugh about the fact that we practically grew up together. From one to another (do you remember that?). It is true, though. We did grow up together. And I feel that, somewhere on the road, we grew into each other. Today, I can't tell where your body starts or where mine ends.
 My person. My best friend. My love. Look at me. I have fallen like a complete fool for you. The passion is not gone. It's only softer and calmer now. It has gone into our blood and become a part of who we are. And hey, don't bother worrying about the future. You'll do just fine. I got your back.
 With all the love I possess.

LOVE IS BLIND

LOVE IS BLIND