Saturday, 6 July 2013


yesterday is gone tomorrow is a mystery for me life seems unbearable and hard to understand everything to me is the same as i sit here in the cold winter night my heart is bleeding with pain thinking that you are not here close to me my soul is empty without you by my side do you remember the promises we made to each other the strong feelings we had the love we cherished so much i wonder where it had disappeared to though sometime i feel broken inside knowing that you are not here with me that u have disappeared where are you my love why did you just go without any explanation as to why you run away did you know that you would break my heart maybe i made a mistake giving you all my love and being left with nothing to make me smile and remove this sadness that is killing me day night because of your absence i know we had some problems that we swore it would never break us a part that we would always endure any kind of situation that may come on our way whether bad or worse bad why did you gave up so easily why did you let your emotion break you away from i thought you were a strong person who was ready to endure anything that may come on his way why didn't just listen to me anyway ma love i just want to apologize if i was the course of all this problems if never gave you a chance to love me more if maybe i was never there for you if you are reading this know that you are still in my soul a special place that i made for you only that i would wish one day you come back to me and let our love be given a second chance

Thursday, 4 July 2013


sitting alone in the cold winter night..... life to me is the same, the painful memories that haunt me day and night tearing through my soul like two double edge sword sometimes memories are to painful to remember especially if your past was damn mistakes that overwhelmed it.... it makes your heart bleed knowing that your will never go back and correct everything that you did while you were still young...... it gives constant nightmares and sleepless nights.. u keep on thinking how u are going to change your life from worst to better and erase every bad situation that happened in your past life... every stupid mistake you made while you were still naive and a toddler to reason well... but for me i see that is part of life and we have to go through it no matter whether we like it or not.... because if never made mistake or did something wrong in our past then we don't have anyt5hing to talk about at all and also we have to realize that this mistakes are a lesson we must learn through out our constant life. so that we can never allow it to haunt or follow us in the feature

Monday, 1 July 2013


what about the killing fields what about the hunger stricken nations what about the promises you made for us that the world will always remain united what about the hatred among our brothers and sisters what about the paradise earth that is being destroyed everyday what about the war that is waging between the nations what about our brothers who left us unexpectedly ..... then where is the love that was strong among the people that we cherished so much why are people dying without mercy yet we are suppose to have peace why is there tribalism in the countries of the worl why do common people sleep without food yet there we have enough food to feed them why do the rich oppress the poor yet the wealth they have was build by the poor but why am i asking this questions yet we can see the reality

Thursday, 27 June 2013


life is so cold and lonely without you mama why did you depart so soon like that why did you leave us with tears in our eyes life to me is worthless without you........ i know you are some where safe with the lord where there is no pain pain or suffering where there is no sickness to kill you but please mama dont forget about us there.. please prepare a place for us to come and stay with you someday i wont forget your teachings.. your corrections... your blessings some we could not realise until you were gone you left something so important in us.... something that is so priceless something that is sooo unique to us you left LOVE,UNITY, among us.... and through that i promise you mama that we will always remain united and strong through the difficult journey we are going to face without you by our side because you taught us to be strong and always bealive in the LORD no matter the obstacles in our way... no matter the pain that will come while on this tire less journey when you left us mama on that sad evening.. i cried and swore that my life would never be the same again but i saw you sleeping peacefully and smiling thats when i realise that you are happy where you have gone peace came inside me and i felt your presense close to me, comforting my soul and wiping every tear that i shade yes mama sometimes i feel gulty for not doing enough to made sure that you were taken to the best hospital in the world i felt guilty that i didnt have money to do that for you mama.. am sorry i was surprise mama that everyone who run away while you were sick all of them came back when they had that you were dead... just imagine mama.. this world is full of crazy happening mama.... even they were willing to raise alot of money just to send you away peacefully.... but they could not even raise one shilling to take you to hospital but mama i forgive them for what they did only GOD will judge them cause that is what you taught me mama. to forgive my enemies and those who have done me wrong mama while you are reading this letter remember that we miss you so much everyday and if we had the power to bring you back mama.. i swear i would have done that long time ago but we have no choice but to except GODS plans.... because his plans are the best dont forget mama to say hi to GOD and tell him that we love him so much and we cant wait to come to heaven and see him bye mama

Friday, 11 January 2013


do we really need love in our day to day life? but why yet we are not serious about it everyday,, we simply joke about it as if it has no value at all.. love was created for a greater is a gift that can never be bought by any price at all. because its value can not be measured by any wealth or treasure in our world today. many people have suffered alot because of love they have travelled in every corner of this world serching for its  beauty,yet it is just infront of us staring at us. love has brought together lost friends. tighten the two couples in a very strong way that no one can break their love. let us stop and r4ealise that we need love in our life.

Friday, 21 September 2012


Sometimes i wonder why we ignore love and despise it so much when we know very well it will always be around us during the darkest hours, lonely days because we can't live without it. Love was and is still the greatest gift in our generation it is so powerful that it can turn broken promises to become true promises. But we should also understand that we can never misuse or joke around with love because it can turn to bitterness and can slice through our fragile hearts without mercy

Monday, 30 July 2012

Am still alive but am barely breathing, am praying to a God that i barely bealive in. What can i do to make it through? I need freedom from the chains that have inprisoned my heart and soul. Am in a twilight zone where there is no existance of life but only pain,cold and torment, only in my imagination that i can truly feel my real life. In a blink of an eye everything that i cherish slowly disappearing from my site. Am powerless to hold them in my arms tightly, please bring me back to life, wake me up from this dream because am falling two thousand feet under knowing that i will never come back from this deep slamber. I see a distance light but i can't reach it in time. But the distance beat of my heart that beats endlessly creating a tune of salvation and freedom, gives me courage to fight my fears and defeat them. I want to break and free myself but my fears wont allow me. I want to fight but am to weak to fight my fears, am freezing, the colds have invaded my body killing me slowly. But i know help is on the way someone will save me from this endless dream yes i can feel it. I cant back down i have to fight this torments, i have to free myself from this chains. The beat of my heart rhyme endlessly, then suddenly i woke up realising that it was only a dream.